CXC Approaching...

I must say... These days I am having to make the most career threatening and obscure decisions I have ever had to ponder on. Its like I have to choose between what's best and what's 'bestest.'
There's the Caribbean Examination Council (CXC) exams approaching and my training is still going on. Now, these exams are none to frolic with, it's what determines your future. Where I'm from its just a petite bit of what changes you from a boy to a man. I now must choose between training which can possibly give me a scholarship, and not training, but dedicating lengthy time to studying and preparing for the exams of my life thus far.
Now people might see this and immediately think, "okay forget about the training and hit the books" but that's the mind of people who are completely unaware as to how much training has developed my social skills and not to mention my self esteem . People who have no idea how much I love what I do and how much effort I have put into it.
On the other hand some people just might say, "don't stop training, just balance your time." Now this I won't even listen to because that person either have no passes, is a scholar or seriously trying to screw me over. CXC is not a joke and i stress on that! Balancing the time is no easy task especially when training ends 6:30- 7 pm everyday.
This is how I see it:

• If I train hard, I MAY BE able to pull off the scholarship. (I am too worried that injury or some other means of negativity may affect my opportunity.)
  
• If I quit training, I WILL be able to pull off my goals of all 8 passes. ( I love training too much for this option)
  
• If I balance training with studies, chances are I won't be able to dominate or be at my full potential at any one of the areas. Hence no scholarship nor passes. (I want to be sure that I do my best in everything)
  

Now seeing how I'm thinking you should get why I'm in such a mess with this situation. Maybe I am over-thinking this but i know this is a decision that will forever affect my future. CXC is about 3-4 months away and I am in no way willing to stop train that long. I will say though, that the month before exams training has to be shoved to the side. I will leave this blog without a conclusion as to what I am going to do in this regard.
I am not only very nervous about this period of my life, I am also excited as I have so much to express to you, more updates and in the next couple months I will let you know how things are coming along. I'm ready to face this, ready to make the mistakes that I would learn from, ready to conquer... It's my moment!